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Callous Behavior

As events in our lives become more and more distant, their memory blends in with the other events of the days, weeks, and years that adjoin them until they become so faint that they seemingly dissolve.

That once burdensome memory becomes lighter and lighter over time until the only marker that remains is a steeled yet supple spot on the heart; the site of an internal battle fought and won, or a callous area… the site of battles that linger on.

The callouses guide us. They warn us.

Our parents used them as badges. A way of identifying each others choices. Honor, respect, duty, shame. etc. They had badges for everything.

Living in sentiment facilitates this type behavior. It’s a type of dreaming that doesn’t have much use for the present.

The badges help to remind us. We work to forget them, hoping that in doing so we will be free from them.

Those of us in pain look for them on others; searching for our broken match, dreaming of catching the hapless soul responsible for our loss, for our guilt, for our rage.

We really do try.

We contextualize. We revisit those callous areas.

We ultimately forgive ourselves just enough to get by because no one likes to be bled on. Unless they are bleeding too, then they don’t notice.

Too many noticeable scars… and we fight to show that we are something else.

Not enough… and we fiercely claim their legitimacy.

There are wounds that might be too faint for anyone else to see, and someone needs to know that they are indeed there.

The sad truth is that we all have too many scars.

Callouses restrict our range of motion. Maybe our bodies know that in hardening themselves, we risk less.

Punishment gives birth to armor.

It’s not the bleeding that is so bad as it is the stains. Once someone sees us with a stain, we know we will forever be that in their eyes.

They are to us.

Too us, I suppose.

Don’t they know that without claiming to be something, we feel at risk of not being anything?

We’ve seen the people they told us are not anything. They don’t treat them like people.

So we choose.

Badges. Labels. Bruises. Callouses.

We are them, politely, until we are no longer.


We roam.

Disrespected angels, covered in stickers and patches



Every culture has their own way of expressing The One Truth, aka the Perennial Philosophy.

In the Hawaiian culture, the process of clearing Karma is called “Ho’oponopono.”

It is Simple. Profound. Elegant. Effective.

Simply repeat the four lines for every thought, deed, action, or expression you have ever felt remorse for or victimized by with sincerity and one can release and be released from all karmic ties.

Simple. Not easy. Simple.

Comprehending and Dealing with “Selling” Syndrome

In this post I’m going to discuss a frequent and common problem that happens to many of us once we start to wake up to the truth of the reality that we live in.

I call it “Selling Syndrome”, or “Come With Me! Disorder”.


It usually happens this way.

“Person A” reads a book, or blog, or watches a film that profoundly effects them to the point of making real changes in their life. In the midst of making those changes Person A reaches out to their friends, family, and pretty much anyone that will listen, a.k.a. “Everyone ELSE/The Public”, and begins to tell them about this GREAT NEW WAY of seeing and experiencing the world and how THEY SHOULD JOIN THEM ON THIS INCREDIBLE JOURNEY.

Person A tells Everyone how great it is, and how much better the world would be for Everyone IF THEY WOULD JUST DO WHAT THEY DID!

The Public, being very accustomed to being told what is best for them, look at Person A and their eyes glaze over. They listen politely until person A is done “Selling” them on whatever epiphany they had, then they go about their way. Sometimes, Person A will encounter someone that actually listens and then a few different things usually happen.

They tell Person A, “I knew that already.”

OR, they disagree with Person A which causes even more turmoil for Person A than The Public not listening.

OR, they label Person A with whatever convenient term they think applies to him/her. Common labels are: “conspiracy theorist”, “new ager”, “kook”, “Jesus freak”, etc.

The reason this is happens is two-fold.

Person A is excited, energized, and enthusiastic about their discovery AND SINCERELY BELIEVES THAT THE WORLD WOULD BE BETTER, if Everyone would just _______.


Another reason SS/CWMD occurs is due to our cultures predominant exercise of looking outward for validation and verification of an internal truth. We have been told that our external world is a reflection of our worth, therefore, it’s only common to WANT OTHER PEOPLE TO RECOGNIZE OUR GROWTH.

How else can we be sure that’s real?

It’s kinda like going to the gym or exercising regularly. At first, no one notices the changes taking place. YOU KNOW CHANGES ARE TAKING PLACE because you are sore, tired, etc… Yet, no one can see it.

After a few weeks of consistent exercise, people that know you may notice a difference, but, for the most part, the world doesn’t respond any different to you.

After a few months, the people closest to you cannot help but remark on how you have changed AND NOW THE REST OF THE WORLD SEES YOU AS A FIT AND LEAN PERSON. The rest of the world had no idea what you were like before you started working out, they just think that YOU’RE IN REALLY GOOD SHAPE, and probably always have been.

Internal, spiritual, and cognitive shifts are perceived in a similar manner.

When we find something we really like, it’s only natural to want to share it. The problem though is that UNTIL WE INTEGRATE THE CHANGE INTO OUR LIFE COMPLETELY, no can believe us.

We look like out of shape people telling Everyone how great working out and going to the gym is.


Treating SS/CWMD is quite simple.

Read that again. Note that I did not write EASY.

There is a difference.

Treating the disorder requires an understanding that while the event, truth, realization that you had is valid, true, and poignant for you, IT MIGHT NOT BE FOR EVERYONE ELSE… RIGHT NOW.

A friend recently put it this way,

“…we are all taking different routes, to the same place.”

It’s totally normal to be excited and and enthusiastic. Real growth actually REQUIRES that type of energy behind it. We don’t need to convince Everyone else though. They are already on their journey.

If they look at you and notice a change and ASK you what you’ve been doing. By all means, share, inform, inspire! There’s nothing wrong in trying to educate and inform. People make entire careers out of it.

The difference is found in the gap that exists between TALKING about something, and actually DOING it.

I like to say that leading a horse to water is a kind and generous, life sustaining act… anything beyond that though is just talking to the wrong end of the horse.


We all want to change the world for the better. That is a great thing.

The change will come from DO’ing and BE’ing the change. It can feel isolated and lonely at first, and that is because we a literally between two worlds. Once we fully enter the new world we’ve carved out by living our truth, we find “like minds”, and often “family” that we never knew we had.

Yes we need to talk and get the word out, that is important.

If we change ourselves though, with consistent practice, sincerity, enthusiasm, and excitement, we won’t have to sell anything though. People will be lined up asking how they can get some of whatever it is that we have.

At that point, it’s not even selling. It’s simply offering.

And which do you prefer? To be sold something or to be offered something?


Can you think with your heart… about the OPPT?

The reaction to the December 21st, 2012 galactic alignment for many people was one of disappointment. The day came and went with nothing spectacular happing nor massive changes seen, so for many people, the day was a lot of hype.

For many people an event that provided hard evidence that a massive shift did happen, or extra-terrestrial and/or extra-dimensional (ET/ED) existence was real, would have provided the PROOF they were waiting for that “THE SHIFT OF AGES” was real. It would have been a joyous celebration.  For some, hard evidence would have resulted in fear or even grief.

For me, the days leading up and following 12/21/12 were different in that I COULD FEEL something was going on. I had no idea what it was, and when I first saw and read the OPPT documents I KNEW they were important.

If we take a look at the scale below, we can see how every emotional state carries its own vibration, frequency (Log) if you will. Simply put, the frequencies of fear, or even anger, are “denser” and “heavier” that those of joy and peace.

So while many people were disappointed and disheartened. The reality is that any human who’s consciousness rests below the vibration of LOVE, likely wouldn’t be able to “see” or comprehend any experience originating in LOVE or higher.

It’s like trying to see sunlight from the bottom of ocean. It can only be seen once you get to a certain depth.





When you try and share the OPPT docs and concept with people do they get:

Angry? Antagonistic? Pessimistic?

If you were a creature who depended on the darkness in order to survive, wouldn’t you steer clear of the shallows where the light penetrates?

Look at the scale above and see where you think YOU fit.  Most people have a range that they fall within and their consciousness fluctuates within that range.  For example, ranging from 250-500.

This consciousness scale is derived from the consciousness research  done by Dr. David Hawkins.  If you are not familiar with him or his work, LMGTFYor read this excellent article about Dr. Hawkins and the scale. 

The Vibration of Joy

According the chart above the emotion of joy vibrates at a higher (faster) frequency than logic (reason), and even love (as experienced in the human body as unconditional love.)

When I started writing this article, I gathered as much information (data) I could find to support my case and went to work. That was being left brained.  That was not living from my heart.  That was being logical and reasoning.

That is the old way.  That is not enjoying creation, but rather taking a methodically logical approach.

That is why this short 1000 word article has taken just as long as the some of the 7000 word one’s I have written!  Living in the heart, IN joy, isn’t easy when you first start. It takes a huge amount of trust. It requires focusing ones awareness and maintaining it.

This act, this conscious choice of choosing how one feels at each and every moment, is what this ascension and “freedom stuff” is all about for a lot of us.  It’s that simple.

Simple, not Easy.

We’ve been lied to all of our lives for the most part. Yet, a part of you KNOWS the truth.

The research into consciousness has purposely been kept on the fringes of science for fear of the empowering effect of truth has on a populace that has been lied to.  

Again, if we accept the theory that underlies the map of consciousness, we can see where keeping people in fear, which calibrates at 100, makes for easier population control than would a society that calibrates in the 350′s, which is noted by the emotion of acceptance.

If people are not afraid, they are not reactionary… i.e. predictable.

Considering what we do know about consciousness, DNA, etheric/source fields, and electromagnetic fields (they are all related), it make’s total sense why we are better off living in the heart.  This article by Denise Le Fay explains the whole thing well too, but to sum it up; as humans we are intellectually, emotionally, and physically more capable when are grounded in our spiritual bodies by living in our hearts instead of in our minds.

What seems to get mistaken in much of the ascension conversation is just how PHYSICAL of an activity it is.  Making the choice to live from the heart does not only make one energetically stronger, it requires discipline to make sure one doesn’t slip back into logic or rationalization.  This is what is meant when you hear or read the phrase “staying grounded”.

When you hear or read someone talking about “BE’ing and DO’ing” what they are likely saying is that they are WORKING on maintaining a field of joy, of complete love… of, for, and with whatever situation FUELS THEM PASSIONATELY.


It CAN take a lot of effort to raise your vibration if you’re used to feeling angry or victimized. That’s why people generally say, DO WHATEVER IT IS THAT YOU ARE PASSIONATE ABOUT, when asked by someone else…


Lighten Your Load

For many people, their physical bodies, or “Earth Suits” as I like to think of them, are damaged. Toxic food, environments, and ATTITUDES, have depleted their suits ability to regenerate. So sometimes, if you’re feeling “stuck” or “bogged down” by the pressure of life, you can simply cut out all in toxicants, including sugar, and drink plenty of high pH (alkaline) water (preferably non-fluoridated), and give your “EARTH SUIT” the tools it needs to regenerate.

As we strengthen our resolve to always come from a place of love, we begin to realize that it is both a PHYSICAL and MENTAL act OF SPIRIT.  When we increase the amount of light our we are capable of holding our consciousness is raised accordingly.  We also tend to sleep less as we are FUELED BY OUR PASSIONS which in turn drives us to do more of whatever it is that we’re passionate about. This is what is meant by the term “LIGHT WORKERS”.

Remember… Your body does not produce an electromagnetic field. IT IS THE RESULT OF ONE.

In the same way smiling sends signals to your brain that one is happy; feeling joy sends signals to your brain telling it that your heart is safely in charge and it can relax from being on alert 24/7 – 365.

We all know to varying degrees that we are more than just flesh and bones and that our core essence IS A PART OF SOURCE… NOT SEPARATE FROM IT.  OUR ESSENCE IS ETERNAL AND CANNOT BE DESTROYED. IT CANNOT BE “KILLED”

So why bother worrying? Is there really anything to worry about? Ever?

How to Move from Hope to Joy

Taken with what we know about 2012/Ascension, this shift we are currently undergoing is giving all of us the energetic push we need to elevate our states of being, and tools like this can help us do that.

Instead of explaining the what why’s and how’s of Joy, I invite you to watch this video by Alpha Gamma Brain, a company that does consciousness calibration research and try the exercise.  Work at it.  It isn’t easy, but it does work when done consistently.

To be firmly rooted in one’s heartspace means that one has shed the use of the idea of the duality (“this OR that”, “either/or”, and shifted their thinking to their heart which kind of feels like, “THIS AND THAT”.

By choosing to “listen to your heart”, by choosing to “stay in your joy”, in trusting that life is complete we allow ourselves to be filled with higher/faster vibrations  of energy/light which makes our  interaction with everyone and thing around us vastly RICHER.

I know it sounds like a lofty ideal, and we all think that for the most part we are kind and decent people, yet we all carry FALSE BELIEFS to one degree or another. The holding on to of “FALSE” beliefs WEIGHS US DOWN. This is why it is important to listen with your heart.

What’s that… You just want the TRUTH?   WHO’S TRUTH?

What if what is true today isn’t true tomorrow? What if what is true for someone else isn’t true for you?

You are a unique expression of SOURCE. No one can do what YOU came here to DO.

So go…!  Flee into your beautiful expansive heart! 

No one can tell you or show you how to BE FREE.

As said so well by Sophia Love:

The next dimension is not a place.  It is another reality, another way of BEing and DOing.  Its guiding principle is love.  Its foundation is freedom.  Its core value is responsibility.  Take it on. Freedom is an attitude.